Eid Mubarak!

Eid Mubarak to all! Ramazan is over. Finally. Though I still feel like fasting. Dont know, dont feel like eating. I wasted Ramazan, I didnt fast, I starved. What is a fast when it isnt kept properly? When you dont offer prayers in the mosque, when you dont respect other people's feelings? Bad, bad of me. I wasted Ramazan. I wasted Shab-e-Qadars, the Big Nights. No maghfirat, no rehmat. I am bound for hell, for sure. O' ALLAH, Bless me! Got almost 6 days off for the Eid holidays, and mids are starting on Friday, coupla days left. I have just wasted my time and done nothing. I haven't studied properly. This semester is looking to go down the drain. Talk about rough times. God help me with my studies too. I dont wanna flunk in the mids!